Been having a pretty rough few weeks (I think it is 100% hormonal) and having a grand ol’time beating myself up every day, followed by horrific dreams at night. After having a lengthy conversation via morning coffee in bed and revealing text messages at work, the hubby gave me an assignment.
List all the aspects of you that you don’t like and look at them objectively without judgment and try to prove them as having no real basis. Then find gratitude for the aspects that really serve you
CAUTION!!! This assignment is MUCH, MUCH harder then it seems. I made my list of dislikes in about 5 minutes, struggled over my list of things I appreciate about myself for THREE HOURS!!!
My list was not pretty, and it left me feeling much more vulnerable and raw then I had expected BUT it was therapeutic for me to write them out and look at them. It was therapeutic for me to look at them and tell them “OK now prove that you are real.” MOST of them (9 of 12) I realized had no proof other then my own perception…perception not proof (the other 3 I am sure my hubby is willing to argue with me are also perception).
So what did I come up with? I think it’s time to work on my jaded perception of myself. I have gone over my list over and over today and can say with 75% certainty that 4 of my 12 are no longer on the list.
Try it.
